We were supposed to be..." I say it often now. I know we all do. That's when I really feel a tug on my heart. When I'm erasing our "could have been," from my calendar.

It was going to be a girls night, but not what you are thinking. A mommy daughter girls night with my 3 year old. We planned to go to the carnival. I was able to slip out of work a little early to make it before her bedtime.

When I had my first daughter over 7 years ago, I was a full blown new mom disaster. My mom was physically there for all of my first struggles; nursing, sleep training, the whole taking care of another human thing. She would hold her granddaughter and smirk at me because deep down, I think she knew I would get through this phase and another phase or challenge would be lurking around the corner. I will never forget her first piece of advice at that time

Grief comes in pumpkin soap dispensers